My name is Janine Maria Tedesco, someone who has a passion for helping people, writing poetry that can tell a true story, and anything that has to do with spirituality, angels, realm reading, and helping people find where they fit in life, what their purpose here is and to help them make great choices for the life they ultimately want! This year my life is finally coming together, it's been a journey and I have more to go, but now is my time to shine, and share it with the world and hopefully this will help others at a young age so they can realize that they aren't damaged goods with no happiness in sight!
From the time I was a child I knew there was something very different about me, I felt as if I didn't belong, however had a bunch of friends and was always around people, I was always the positive one, who I guess you can say to me, the glass was always half full and never half empty!
I was raised by my mother and basically abandoned by my father at 5 months old, so my mother had double the work because she had to play both roles of mom and dad for my brother and I. My mother instilled all the important factors in life in us. She taught me to love with all my heart but to also guard it as well!
Being abandoned by my father most certainly did a number on my family, but out of my siblings and I, I'm thinking I took it the hardest. Growing up I had major relationship problems, in my eyes if a guy was great, chances were it was to good to be true because if my father could leave me then any man could and would leave as well, so when things would get to complex I'd soon after make a reason to bail on the relationship, either in my head the guy was cheating on me, or was trying to avoid me so I would walk away and be the one to leave and look like I'm the quitter, and come to think of it whenever things got crazy I did just that until my latest, but I can't jump to that part just yet, but I can guarantee that he's a keeper.
Going back to my mother and family, honestly I couldn't ask for a more amazing mother who is the true definition of what a real mother is! For as long as I can remember my mom always worked two jobs to make sure my brother and I had a great childhood! We didn't have all the money in the world, but we had more then enough love to make up for that! My family is huge and I wouldn't have it any other way! I was brought up with so much love around me, all that love to me outweighed the heartbreak of my father walking out, or so I thought, but I just found out December 2013 that I've been carrying this heartbreak with me and never let it go, even though I thought I did, to me not bashing my father was me letting it go, forgiving him and moving on, but apparently that's not how it works! However, up until this year 2014 my father was my biggest heartbreak!
Now since this huge breakthrough I'm having, all I want to do is help people with daddy issues heal their wounds, patch them up and move on to being the best they can be, it's like a huge weight is being lifted, I know I'm not completely healed just yet, but I'm feeling like I'm on my way and that writing my life's story for people to read, and knowing that I might be able to help someone heal is going to benefit me and help a lot of people also! So, this is my journey to healing, and the self discovering of who I am!!! Stay tuned for the continuation of "Who I am?"
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