So, my whole life I have struggled with my weight, and after a while I have just learned to deal with it and make light of it. I was NEVER the cheerleader, but I was okay with that, I was never the girl who had a favorite pair of skinny jeans, and I was totally okay with that as well! For as long as I can remember every huge family event I'd always be on some kind of crazy "CRASH DIET" even that words annoy me because I've been on tons, and have failed them all!
My brother got married in 2007 and I can honestly say from 2007-2010 I was at my absolute highest weight, at that point I was just so over it! I really don't think I was even on a diet for Marco's wedding, then the end of 2009 my cousin Matt got engaged to Ashley, (Matt was more like my brother growing up) Ashley to me was one of the most prettiest girls I knew, she had asked me to be in her bridal party, I was more then EXCITED and HONORED to be asked to be in their wedding, so I happily accepted. January 2010 the girls in the party went looking for our gowns, this one day completely changed my life, Ashley wanted us to get our gowns from Macy's bridal boutique, the girls in the bridal party we're seriously like a size 3, and I so was NOT and we all went together, it was so bad and I was at my highest weight and couldn't even put a gown on even one leg to get an idea, it was without a doubt the most humiliating day of my life, I wanted to bail on the wedding, I didn't even want to put my opinion about the dress out there, I just wanted the seamstress to take my measurements and hide in a corner, when the seamstress was taking everyone's measurements I asked her to not say mine out loud, when the seamstress told me my dress measurement was a 28 I just hung my head down in shame, went to the bathroom and cried. I had to pay an extra $75.00 to have my dress made that much bigger, and it was that day that changed my mind frame! Sad thing is that I know you're supposed to lose weight for yourself, but I really did it for my amazing cousin Matt! He has accomplished so much in his life, and I wanted his bridal party to look stunning, and having a huge obese cousin was something I wasn't going to let happen because Matt deserved his cousin to be as beautiful as the rest of the bridal party!
So, from that day forward I was on a strict diet, there was NO MORE FASTFOOD, JUNKFOOD, EATING LATE, or STARVING MYSELF! I went to the gym and just stayed focused. Our dresses finally came in the end of August, and I had lost about 50 pounds and was just so proud of myself, and did it on my own, no surgeries, no pills, no powders...JUST ME! So when the seamstress went to give me my gown she looked at me very confused and said she thinks they messed the measurements up because she felt the gown was way to big, but me being as EXCITED as I was told the truth and said, "nope, it's not the store, it was me, I lost 50lbs." Unfortunately because I had lost the weight I also had to have it taken in a lot and pay almost $100.00 for the gown to be taken in, but I was more then happy with that because it was something I literally worked my butt off for...so, for the people who read this blog just know that if you feel heavy and anything like the way I felt, it isn't impossible to lose weight, you just really have to want it! Anything is possible!
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